Topsy Turvy

I ran into a friend this Saturday who ask the typical question, “How have you been?” My robotic response was, “Busy...but good.” He further responded by saying, “But, you like that right?” Heck no I don't like that?! But I suppose even if I don't like it that has been the nature of my life lately and my choice. As I was getting started in the day this morning I thought about how one of Satan's tactics against believers is busyness. It made me think about how I have been spending my time lately. There are some things I do that I really enjoy and other habits I am longing to break. For example, I love to write in the morning. But I never allow myself enough time, or get distracted just enough not to have writing time. Also, I love to take pictures but I never seem to take a moment to pause, break out my camera and snap a couple shots. (deep sigh) I don't want my life to turn into a bunch of I-wish-I-would-haves or I-should-haves.

After service this morning my heart is so convicted to be true to myself and what God is nudging me to do. It's funny how we fuss at children for having to be told to do something more than once but as adults we're guilty of the same. I realize that it's my choice to be involved in the things I am. Which is fine but at what point are these things pulling me away from my truest self and real loves? I have been guilty of masking my busyness as productivity and treating my weariness as some sort of satisfying reward to all my “hard work”. I'm shaking my head at myself right now! Even if I don't have this all figured out, one thing I do know is that I want to enjoy my life to the fullest. I haven't been doing that lately so I think it's time to change up the game.

Living Authentically,
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