In The Incubator

Something happened yesterday scared the (beep) out of me. Stepping out on faith is like unwrapping a gift that you have waited years to receive. But the trick is you can only peel away one centimeter of wrapping at a time. You know the gift is in there...you know it belongs to you...you know it's within arms reach. However, every opportunity to peel away a layer of wrapping comes with it the “peeling away” of a piece of yourself. That's the part that may hurt but the question is...how bad do you want the gift inside?
Moving forward fearlessly is completely intentional these days. It will have to be actually. My good friend Noele said something today in an email commonly heard yet profound. She used the term, “...cast out fear...” which made me think of how we have to keep moving in the midst of apprehension and anxiety. The intentional act of releasing my fears and welcoming the unknown is a true act of faith for me. Some things I feel my grip is tightly wrapped around. Prying my fingers from certain areas of my life have been my growing pains lately. Also I have learned that trusting in God is quite a transformative thing to do. Kind of like a little adventure! Well, at least I like to think if it that way....keeps life interesting.
Yesterday was filled with all kinds of goodies and surprises! I crossed paths with a friend who I need to be reconciled with; a situation that has created times of restlessness. I say "be reconciled" in a way that means keeping peace at all costs. Me and this "friend" haven't been seeing eye to eye lately...I suppose that's the nature of relationships though; you won't always agree but there is a point where you have to be in agreement to walk hand in hand. Whether in friendship or in partnership the choice of walking hand in hand comes at a cost. What am I willing to lay down? What am I willing to sacrifice? There is so much to be learned in this area. I feel that if you are not willing to give up your entire will for a purpose greater than yourself then you will never know the fullness of love exemplified.

Living Authentically,
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