The Italian Gentleman

I heard a pretty cool quote this morning..."Wisdom always chooses now what it will be satisfied with later on." (Joyce Meyer). I can relate to that sentiment this afternoon as I'm processing the aftermath of an unexpected early morning conversation. I recently shared about a situation that I decided to "bow out gracefully" of. Well, it came back around this morning around 8:30. You know, when you write those "Dear John" emails you never expect "John" to respond...but he did. And the boxer/briefs were all in a bunch I tell you! In the beginning at least and as we talked we were able to resolve our differences ammicably. Usually before those type of conversations go down I've rehearsed what will be said at least 3-4 times...but dude caught a sista off guard with the 8am, I'm-about-to-go-there-on-you, phone call. After I was able to gain my bearings and get my courage up, I realized that if anything was left to be said, now is the time. What came next was yet another surprise. This gentlemen proceeded to express his feelings and emotions clearly and eloquently. Without a trace of cynicism in his voice he elaborated on our past, his thoughts and reactions to my behavior and his own, as well as how the situaion had an effect on his life. He was mature with his emotions, attentive in listening and respectful of the decision that was made (darn him for making himself more attractive). Women can spend a lot of time talking about the kind of partner they wish they had or are looking for; what their current partner is not doing and what they wish they were doing. I can say that, this morning, I experienced a rare moment. And that is having a moment of mutual expression, apologies and forgiveness, listening ears all with an undercurrent of love. It was refreshing to resolve something with a past love..I mean actually resolve something and not be left feeling more emotionally drained then when the conversation began.
I'm taken back to the quote from this morning about wisdom. The decision that was made was with the idea of future self-preservation. My peace was on the line and anything that disturbs my inner sanity is grounds for dismissal. As hard as the decision was I had to keep a very important goal in the forefront of my mind: maintain peace of mind with all soundess and diligence. I can already sense the payoff.

Live Authentically,
G