Tuesday Blog: Desire Alone Isn't Enough

"As a man thinks in his heart so is he..." That verse in Proverbs pierced my heart this morning and brought me to tears. It was like a revelation of the power I have been given through my thoughts.

Change is a process and it's often a lengthy one. I am feeling a bit out of sorts this morning. Trying to go about my day without writing and meditating has left me unsettled. Why I continue to ignore the things that truly bring me happiness and steadily invest in things that drain me is a mystery. Actually its not, I just don't want to admit to myself how lazy I have been. I like to think of myself as "having it together" but what am I really doing if I keep finding myself with this taste of dissatisfaction in my mouth?! And the dissatisfaction is with me; not my job, family, money or men. But me. Could this be my perfectionist side talking? I don't think so because perfection is unattainable on this earth. What I am talking about is absolutely attainable if I put my mind and strength behind it. But why is it that the things I don't want to do I do and the things I want to do I continue to push aside?

Last night I realized that desire alone isn't enough. Desire by itself is like gasoline without a spark. In and of itself it holds the power to fuel a car, a motor coach or even a tank but without that tiny little spark it's just standing liquid. That's what I feel like right now "standing liquid". The spark that ignites desire is action; desire combined with action is an unstoppable force. Whether used in a positive or negative way, desire plus action in habitual practice produces change. I will never be any different from the state I am at this very moment if I don't put action behind my desires. It's kind of scary because if I do that something will happen! The reason why people live such complacent, boring lives is because there is no action that follows their desires. I believe we all have the potential and capacity to be great but what we do with the dreams and visions God puts in our hearts is up to us. Free will is a trip.

So, I'm presented with a challenge (as God always seems to do so eloquently). Do I (a) continue to let my mind be ruled by fear and flat out laziness, robbing my dreams of the opportunity to manifest or (b) get up, dust myself off, give myself a swift kick in the rear and get going!

"For I know the plans I have for you" declares the Lord "plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future." I have the assurance that everything will be alright. Not easy but alright. I don't want to go through another year (six months even) knowing that I didn't put my all into what God put in my heart to do. I don't have all the answers and sometimes I have no idea what will happen next. But one thing I do know is that I can't look back on my life knowing I had the chance to grasp greatness but not the courage to reach.
 
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