Kava Sundays

More than anything I want to be right for God. But the funny thing about thinking I can be right is that my right-ness (or righteousness) has already been taken care of. So why is it that I feel like it's my job to deem myself “right” before God? Perhaps I need to begin with a clear understanding of partnership. Working for NPO's has given me a pretty good understanding of how partnerships are formed and are played out. First, there is an established need...then the seeking out of other organizations who's services could possibly meet the need...then the meetings happen (oh, the meetings...)...the partnership is complete when both parties have clearly laid out the plan for how the relationship will be reciprocal and actual needs will be met. All this happens even before there is a tangible product that is produced from the partnership. Whew! Now the actual work happens...

This idea of creating partnerships makes me think of my role in my relationship with God. Well, not my role really just my position rather.  I have responsibilities...I can't just sit idly by and expect the heavens to crack and doves to descend and give me my life's direction right? There are things I have to act on...God gave me a brain with all kinds of creativity flowing through it, I'm pretty sure that's not there for no reason. There is a measure of me putting one foot in front of the other and giving movement to the Holy Spirit's promptings. And then there is the supernatural element of God just doing his God-thing. I guess what I am trying to say to myself is that I have reached my fed up point; that point you have to reach before things start changing. I like to call it my I-don't-have-time-for-this-anymore state. Like when you look at yourself in the mirror and realize those clothes you have been squeezing into became 3 sizes too small 6 months ago. Or that relationship you have been telling yourself is worth it but you seem to be the only one actually in the relationship. Or, and this one is my favorite, when you know you can't afford something but you convince yourself you deserve it for whatever self righteous reason. You have to come to the point where you have a conversation with yourself and the words, “I don't have time for this anymore” come out of your mouth before your perspective begins to shift. I feel a shift coming on.

There is this sense I often experience when I recognize the awesomeness of God and the life He has given me. These moment last for split seconds and I try to milk them for all they are worth. In these moments I am rejuvenated by the reminder of what God has done and how he is moving. When I start taking things for granted or get frustrated by my tendency to over work myself, I go back to the moments when God gives me a glimpse of his greatness and remind myself that all I need is to relax and enjoy life. I will start with a piece of carrot cake from Kava House....yum-o!

 










Live Authentically,
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