To fully grasp completeness is to be absolutely fulfilled with God alone and content with my life as it is. If I never received another thing from God, from this moment on, would I still be content? The words of the Apostle Paul in Philippians 4 talk about being totally content regardless of the circumstance or situation. The more I pull away from God and go my own way, thinking it will bring lasting satisfaction, the less I will know true contentment.
This reality reverberates in my mind lately as I have been struggling with my single status. Don't get me wrong, being single still rocks! What I am talking about specifically is the identification and value that is placed on being a couple as opposed to an individual. When I begin to feel as if I am missing out on something because a particular dating situation didn't work out or someone I had been interested in finds a better connection with someone else then I am treading on dangerous territory. Sometimes I ought to thank God for keeping me from things as opposed to giving me everything I ask for. As much as my human nature wants to be closely united with another and to reach out to someone, I have to hold my peace and believe in the timing of God. It's not always easy (especially when your homegirls get engaged or past love interests tell you they have a girlfriend). All in all I am richly blessed. Walks by the river on a Sunday afternoon are one of my favorite moments and I look forward to coming home to someone and being able to share my day. However, my “right now” is not in the daydream of tomorrow but in the moments that I am living out as I type these words. Can my life be changed in an instant? Absolutely. Could I fall head over heals in love again? Of course. In the meantime, I will take joy in placing one foot in front of the other, putting my hand in my Fathers and walking this thing out.
The richness of my life is not in the form of a wedding ring but in the deep knowing that at the beginning and end of each day, I...am...loved.
Living Authentically,
G
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