Contemplative thoughts...

All artists know the struggle of fulfilling our daily responsibilities with the same fervor as our art work. There is a silent struggle that goes on within me that fights toward my dreams and desires. One that is no longer able to be contained by silence and passivity. Reading Jeremiah 29 assures me of two things, (1) to accept my current position in life and pray for the success of people and things around me and (2) to trust in God's perfect timing. The itch within me to see my dreams come to pass is a good motivator. At the same time I have to be careful not to let anxious behavior come from those desires.
For example, over the weekend I rented a car. A cute, black VW Bug.

I haven't had a car in over two years (I decided to invest in my first house instead) and it could have been very tempting to tell myself that I needed one after having such a cute one for a few days. But when I had it in my possession, the overwhelming desire to have it for myself was surprisingly absent. Many times it sat in my driveway without moving for most of the day. Though it was nice knowing it was there I realized that everything I need I already have access to. Other than taking a last minute road trip, I am able to do the majority of things I need and want to do. That made me realize that I need to be more thankful for my current position in life not constantly yearning for things or conveniences I don't have at the moment. My life is good...I want to enjoy it, not spend every waking hour thinking of things I don't have that I feel would put me in a better position. Also, it made me think about the sovereignty of God's timing and how he knows when is the best time for me to have something.

As I live through today and process my thoughts I will remember the lessons a little "bug" taught me...