I did the unthinkable this afternoon. I deleted all previous blog posts prior to this. At least two years of random thoughts, quirky circumstances and humorous things that just made no sense...gone. This command decision came from a desire to have a more disciplined, thematic process to my writing. Also because it made sense to no one else but me and I wasn't satisfied with that. Of course I don't expect anyone else to understand what goes on in my head but giving others a glimpse ought to have some sort of rhyme or reason. That's my opinion at least. So I begin at a point in my life where I am about to embark on three specific tasks: (1) become a more dedicated, consistent, and educated runner, (2) take better care of my health and (3) begin a 21 day Daniel Fast.
(the thought "oh crap what am I thinking" just entered my mind)
The dissatisfaction within me comes from a deep seeded knowing of what I am capable of. I am a Child of God, nothing less. Even what I know can be exceeded and that's what drives me; not what I know I can do but what possibilities are available to me, those unthinkable things.
So..I begin from here, where I am right now. Not from where others are or where I think I ought to be but from where I actually am. As I sip on my last latte for a while (giving up caffeine is a part of the fast) and stare out of the window of my favorite coffee spot I will ready myself for the changes that await me. I can't help but to think that this is about to be hard as hell.
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